*snugs* Thank you so much! I really am so glad you liked it, because I love the original so much, and it's just...they're such brothers in it, and they love each other so completely, and I'm really relieved it still came through in the remix.
Yes, this. I never made it explicit in the story, but this is what Dean understands, that Sam never quite does, even after losing Jess. Sam's bene shaped by loss for as long as he can remember, but Dean remembers the time before, even if it's just vague impressions of love and safety, so he can relate to the people who've had it suddenly ripped away more than Sam can, because for Sam, it was never the default state.
*nod nod*
Exactly. Even while he was with Jess, I think he was still coloured by it, not just because he knew normal didn't exist, but because he was still shaping himself by the things he didn't have--he never thought he could have everything, and he never did, you know? Which is completely different from Dean, who tries to make it work with Cassie and his family, because that's still what he wants, and what he thinks it should be.
And once Jess was gone, Sam was heart broken, but there wasn't that helpless bewilderment of suddenly losing everything and not understanding how or why, which is the part that Dean really gets. Sam knew what did it, and he knew how to fight it, or at least how to try, whereas Dean remembers being the kid without answers, and learning that John wouldn't have them, either.
Oh, boys.
You understand that I meant to say, "I'm so glad that came across." Um. I am very easily sidetracked by them.
Thank you again for the awesome feedback, and for writing such a lovely story in the first place. And also, you know, for listening to me whine. *g*
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Date: 2007-04-30 10:12 pm (UTC)Yes, this. I never made it explicit in the story, but this is what Dean understands, that Sam never quite does, even after losing Jess. Sam's bene shaped by loss for as long as he can remember, but Dean remembers the time before, even if it's just vague impressions of love and safety, so he can relate to the people who've had it suddenly ripped away more than Sam can, because for Sam, it was never the default state.
*nod nod*
Exactly. Even while he was with Jess, I think he was still coloured by it, not just because he knew normal didn't exist, but because he was still shaping himself by the things he didn't have--he never thought he could have everything, and he never did, you know? Which is completely different from Dean, who tries to make it work with Cassie and his family, because that's still what he wants, and what he thinks it should be.
And once Jess was gone, Sam was heart broken, but there wasn't that helpless bewilderment of suddenly losing everything and not understanding how or why, which is the part that Dean really gets. Sam knew what did it, and he knew how to fight it, or at least how to try, whereas Dean remembers being the kid without answers, and learning that John wouldn't have them, either.
Oh, boys.
You understand that I meant to say, "I'm so glad that came across." Um. I am very easily sidetracked by them.
Thank you again for the awesome feedback, and for writing such a lovely story in the first place. And also, you know, for listening to me whine. *g*