Revelations (Hidden Desires Remix) [Harry Potter; Draco/Harry, Severus/Lucius]

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Title: Revelations (Hidden Desires Remix)

Author: schemingreader

Summary: The war is over and Draco Malfoy is explaining to Harry Potter why he has discovered Severus Snape and Lucius Malfoy naked together on the Headmaster's couch at Hogwarts.

Rating: NC-17

Fandom: Harry Potter

Warnings: Dirty talk

Spoilers: Story is compliant with canon through Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince.

Title, Author and URL of original story:
Hidden Desires by Titti (titti)





Revelations


The first thing you should know is that I love my parents, more than anyone. I'll never love a boyfriend as much as I love them--not even one with an arse like yours, Potter.


You blush all the way down to your navel, don't you--I'll bet if I lift the sheet I'll see where all that blood is going. Mmmm, yes. Right down that little trail of hair...


You're so impatient. You asked me to tell this story, now you have to listen to me tell it.


When we last saw each other, in sixth year, I was desperate to keep my father and mother safe from harm. My father, because he was in Azkaban, was in danger from the Ministry. My mother, because she was free, was in danger from the Dark Lord. All I knew was that I had to kill Albus Dumbledore. I never wanted to kill anyone--well, you know that, because you found me in the girl's bathroom and sliced me up.


Of course I was trying to use the Cruciatus on you, Potter. I've always wanted to see you writhe.


In the event, Professor Snape cast the Killing Curse on the Headmaster, and we fled the school grounds together. I was willing to do quite a lot to keep my parents safe. Really anything, even if involved the Forbidden Forest or a Dark Creature--if I would have a mother and father at the end of it, I would go through it.


I knew you would understand. Sorry, I didn't mean to get serious on you. You're a prat, yourself--look at you getting choked up about how noble I am.


Snape spirited me away from the other Death Eaters to his horrid little house, where I promptly threw up. I was sure that Snape was going to hand me to the Dark Lord and everything would be over.


But he said "Don't be absurd, Mr. Malfoy,"-- of course I do an excellent imitation of him, Potter, he was my Head of House, after all--"Don't be absurd, Mr. Malfoy." It was then that I understood Snape's desire to help me with my task.

Well, I thought I did. It was all rather complicated. He'd promised my mother he'd protect me--he promised Dumbledore he wouldn't let me become a killer--he'd promised Voldemort that he was loyal--but most of all, he was motivated by a desire to get into my father's knickers.


Don't wince, Potter. You aren't the only gay wizard with a thing for platinum pubic hair.


Snape found a way to communicate with my first cousin Nymphadora Tonks, and she agreed to hide me in the Order headquarters--naturally, you know this part. It was how I finally managed to get into your pants. I don't have to retell that part--maybe the bit about the blowjob in the kitchen. You could suck the varnish off a wand, Potter. The Boy Who Lived to Suck Cock.


Do you want me to tell you or not? You're so distracting.


Snape gave me all kinds of clues that he fancied my father, but it took me ages to put them together. At first I thought he had a crush on my mother. He would always say, "Your mother is a very fine woman," when I complained that she didn't want me to spy for the Order. (I know. I'm amazing at it. I used to sneak up on people in the Slytherin Common Room and make them jump, thinking Snape had caught them. It's a gift.) "Your mother is a very fine woman; you and your father both owe her so much."


After awhile I began to realize that it wasn't that Snape was envious of my father's marriage to my mother, but that he felt guilty for envying my mother's marriage to my father. He was friendly with her, first, and-- in any case, he was always in favour of filial duty. He's definitely one for the cardinal virtues, is Snape. I doubt he considers adultery proper wizardly behaviour. He was always on me about proper wizardly behaviour. Yes, especially after he'd set me up as the second double agent inside the Order. He thought the best way for me to persuade everyone that I was trustworthy was to be like him.


I know you never trusted him. No one does. He keeps everything bottled up but anyone can see he's always about to explode. Only someone like Dumbledore, someone powerful and a little mad, would have understood that as a sign of his trustworthiness. The Dark Lord certainly didn't trust him. Placing me in the midst of the Order would never have worked if the Dark Lord hadn't known my parents for so long. It wouldn't have worked if my Aunt Bella hadn't made me learn Occlumency, either. I could never be as good at it as Snape--he uses his angry thoughts as a screen--but I did all right.


I would report to Snape once a fortnight, and he would always be wound up tight. He would give me advice and pat me on the shoulder, and I would spend the night in his dreadful house. That was how I had my second confirmation that he was in love with my father--I interrupted him masturbating--


Do you want to hear or not? Put that hand over my mouth again, and I'll--oh you like that, do you. You like biting. I can think of a few things that I might want to bite. What a tease you are, Harry! Oh, do that again.

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What was I saying? Yes, I caught Snape wanking, and he was using--Potter! You wanted to know! He was using a sex toy, all right? For the anus, Potter. You've gone all red again--your ears are cute. Don't hit me!


Fine, so I'm red, too--it was quite embarrassing. I didn't even think of him as having a body, much less a sex drive. One doesn't like to think of older people that way. All right, he's only forty, but still. He was naked in the bath.


Snape has a very large--yes you know you DO want to know so just let me say it. He has an absolutely massive penis for a man his size. He was clearly getting into it; I think that's the only reason he didn't catch me at the door. He was moaning my father's name under his breath. I'm quite sure the only reason he was doing it while I was staying in the house was that it was the only time he wasn't living with that disgusting rat animagus.


Oh, you didn't know about that? Snape hated him more than anyone else, and considering how many people Snape hates, that's saying something.


So there I had my evidence. Snape felt he owed our family, especially my mother. He was wanking to thoughts of my dad, and campaigning behind the scenes with the Dark Lord to get him rescued. My aunt didn't like that. Gradually, even a person as deep in denial as I was had to add things up.


You see, I always knew that my parents' marriage was, let's just say, somewhat more friendly than romantic. They share a bedroom suite together, but they don't sleep in the same room, much less the same bed. They called each other "darling" all the time, and planned social events, and conferred about my education. They were more like--a team. That's it, like partners in a business rather than lovers.


My mother was very distraught when my father was arrested, but she kept saying, "What will become of my Draco?" She was more worried about me, being without a father, than she was sad about being without him.


Don't look so grim, Potter. I know my father threatened you. If it weren't for you we'd all be dead, so I'm sure he regrets it now.


Even though I think my father lured Snape into the Dark Lord's service, Snape was never angry with him and never spoke badly of him. Well, of course, he wouldn't to me, because that would have violated his code or something. But even to other people, even in Death Eater meetings when I would have understood, or when we met with Lupin or Tonks for the Order, he never said anything negative about Lucius.


Yes, Lupin knew that Professor Snape was a spy for us. If he had told you, Snape would be dead now. Oh poor you, no one tells you anything, yes, yes--well, I'm telling you now. It was the only way for Snape to funnel you the information you needed about the Horcruxes, and if he hadn't, you never would have found them.


Snape persuaded the Dark Lord that he needed to rescue my father from Azkaban, and as the Dementors were already on our side, it was no problem to Apparate my father back to civilization. He has a cottage in Normandy on the coast. No, not an ancestral place, just a holiday home; we used to go there when I was little for holidays in the summer. I'll take you there. We can go flying; it's a great place to fly.


Why not? You didn't think I was going to keep you from my parents, did you? I think my mother can forgive you for beating me up all the time if you declare a truce with my father. Of course they will; don't you know I'm spoiled?


Mmm. If you keep kissing me like that I'll never finish the story.


Snape knew when the final battle would be, and he was determined to keep my father out of it at all costs. My father had flown back to our house and was hiding out at the Manor with my mother, still planning to fight with the Death Eaters. He thought he had to do it, to protect my mother and me. Of course, Potter, that's the whole point, how do you think the Dark Lord got people to follow him in the first place? Snape went to the Manor and drugged my father with a potion. He wanted there to be the impression that this time my father really was under Imperius, so that we would be safe from the Aurors and the Wizengamot.


You know what happened at the final battle. Snape fought with the Order and took some heavy curses. I was fairly useless, except for that Trip Jinx, which you must admit was brilliant. Teddy Nott turned out to be an Order member, and Pansy Parkinson, to know more curses than I do, and Longbottom, to be amazingly brave; Granger set the building on fire and Weasley fought like a demon, and you--you killed the Dark Lord.


Voldemort.


I wouldn't have said it for anyone else but you.


My father woke up after two days and everything was different. Snape had been pardoned almost immediately in an emergency session of the Wizengamot and given an Order of Merlin, but the first thing he wanted to do was to see my parents and tell them I was all right.


My mother, who is very wise, thanked him, wept, and insisted she had to see me immediately, leaving Snape alone with my father and some really excellent wine. She knew, I think, longer than I did--maybe even longer than Snape did.


Yes of course I put something in the wine. Smirk? Moi? I do not smirk. It was just a little something to relax their inhibitions, so they would tell each other the truth. Snape drank more, so he told my father that he'd always loved him and wanted him.


Because I listened to the surveillance tapes, Potter. We adapted some Muggle technology; Weasleys aren't the only ones who know how to do that. I had magical videotape of Severus Snape saying that, "I want you, Lucius, sex-u-ally."


If I'd known you giggled like that, I would have imitated him for you years ago. What do you mean? Of course I would have liked to make you laugh. Make you laugh, make you angry, turn you on--I just like to get a rise out of you.


Oh, yes, I do like to get a rise out of you.


So now you want to know how you managed to stumble on them in flagrante delicto at Hogwarts? It took my leaving the video of their drunken revel out for my father to see. He's surprisingly single-minded, my father. Without the Dark Lord and his desire for wizarding purity to guide him, he was at loose ends. He really didn't know what to do with himself. He was depressed. His whole life was a lie. He had risked my life, my mother's life, and everything he loved, for a madman. He had gambled and come up broke. Not literally, of course, as we have tremendous Muggle holdings and nothing that happens in the Wizarding world could touch them. I just mean that he had risked and risked and risked, and for nothing.


I know you don't see it that way. It's my family name, though. For all of these years we've been known as power-hungry dark wizards--that's not so bad. Now we're known as dupes of the most murderous con artist in magical history, a monster determined to destroy the wizarding world. I think my father was crushed by the revelations. He had really believed that keeping the wizarding world pure was going to save magic. When he finally understood the depth of the lies, he seemed to age ten years.


I had a mirror that I had used in my spying that allowed me to sit in another room and watch my father in his bedroom without him knowing. I watched him sit in the room with the playback machine and watch that video of Professor Snape. He figured out how to get close up and watch Snape's expression--the pained look in his eyes. Even in such a primitive medium, you could see his unrestrained emotion. He wasn't losing his temper or having a tantrum, or something like that, it was just showing a lot on his face.


It was altogether incredibly embarrassing, but I couldn't look away. For one thing, I was used to spying from my experience in the war, and you never waste an opportunity to gather information when you spy. For another thing--I wanted it to succeed. I wanted my father to have something to keep him alive. Snape could do that.


Snape could need something from my father that would make my father want to live. Need, not give--my father needs to be needed, needs to be important to something. All the things he'd done in the past, like being on the board at Hogwarts or giving money to the Ministry, were tainted because they came from his Death Eater priorities. He couldn't see how he would ever be able to go back to public life. I heard him discuss it with my mother, over those two weeks, but she couldn't comfort him.


Snape, who protected me through the whole war, deserved happiness even more than my father. He used to shout in his sleep--he was so miserable about having used Avada Kedavra on Dumbledore.


That's why I was hoping they would get together, but it took another two days of my father peering at those tapes. Even when he was touching himself, my father's face only looked intent.


So what did you see when you found them? I can't believe they were in the Headmaster's Office. Was my father wearing the boots?


I love the way you blush; it's just amazing. Snape had passed out? I could probably do you until you pass out.


Oh Harry, I've never laughed so hard in my life! I thought you would turn purple. All right, I won't bugger you until you pass out.


The whole thing turned you on, didn't it? It's exciting, seeing other men have sex. I know Snape is kinky. I heard his fantasies on the tape. That voice--yes, he's ugly, but that voice-- I wanted to do all of those things with you.


Do you want to be kinky with me? Do you wish I would tie your cock and balls with a leather thong?


With my hair? You are kinky--do you want to come on my hair? No? Do you like it when I tease you with it? Brush your nipples with it? I'm so glad I grew it out--look how your nipples are sticking up, so beautiful, I just have to--


I love the way you moan when I do that. I'll lick the other side. Don't move--do I have to tie you down? Hold the headboard then. Just--hold it--ah, yeah. I love that, the hair in your armpits smells so good to me. You have the best sweat--don't move! Yeah, you say it tickles but look at this--you are so hard you're leaking. I've got to taste that--oh yeah. Oh yeah. Yeah. You are beautiful. Yes.


Don't move, Potter. Don't move. I'm going to get myself ready--just hold the headboard. Don't touch. I'm so--I've got to--I'm going to just sit on your cock and ride you. Harry. Yes, just hold on, just--ahhhh--you are so sexy. Don't move. I'm doing this and you're just going to--enjoy--hold the headboard! Is it good? It's good, isn't it? Do you wish you could fuck me harder? Don't move. Don't move. I'm going to fuck you harder. Yeah. You're shaking--God. I love to--fuck you--Harry--ahh. God. I'm going to come--so beautiful---yes. Yes!


Come here. Mmm, that's it, hold me tight.


Of course it was brilliant. Isn't it always, with me? Let's just--be happy. Shh, love--kiss me. Not just my hair, my lips, too. Yes, I think after everything, we deserve it.

Comments

[celandineb.livejournal.com]

Oh, this was splendid -- I loved Draco's voice here!

[titti]

Oh my, this is wonderful.

I love Draco and to see it from his prospective is wonderful. I'm amazed that you turned it into a HBP compliant fic. Really it's amazing. Thank you so much.

[(Anonymous)]

Heh heh. All that snooping around your journal paid off! I'm so glad you liked it.

[titti]

Yes, it did. I loved it. I really did.

[schemingreader.livejournal.com]

I'll bet you didn't guess I wrote this, even though you must have read a bunch of my fics to remix them. It's really different from how I usually write. I don't think I've done any stories in first person like this. It was fun! I almost remixed your King Arthur story, but I couldn't come up with a good angle on it.

[titti]

Heh, not in a million years. I ended up reading most of your fics, because I like to get a feeling of the writer, not just the one I'm remixing, but to have a first person from Draco's POV is just too sweet.

[luthien82]

There should be more fics like that! This was seriously wonderful and snarky and entertaining and generally very loveable! ♥

[schemingreader.livejournal.com]

What a nice comment! This is only my second try at Draco/Harry. The other was a long crossover with many pairings and a lot of angst. This was more fun!

[meredyth-13.livejournal.com]

Lovely, lovely story. Draco's voice was so right, and you could just hear the words in the blanks... loved the whole tone of it.

[schemingreader.livejournal.com]

Glad you liked it, and it's great that you could hear what Harry must have been saying--I was trying for that.

[superdork37.livejournal.com]

This was so wonderful! I love the idea of Draco telling Harry all of this and the little bits of one-sided banter were so cute!

[schemingreader.livejournal.com]

I'm very glad you enjoyed it! Yes, I was writing one side of the banter. Draco seems to be getting the best of Harry here.

[mizbean.livejournal.com]

This was so much fun to read:-)

[schemingreader.livejournal.com]

I'm very glad you liked it! This is only my second attempt at Harry/Draco.

[onlysayitonce.livejournal.com]

This was lovely. I have to admit, when I first started I was anticipating a huge, terrible twist at the end - Draco is insane, or talking to dead!Harry or something. I'm glad you didn't go that way. ;)

[schemingreader.livejournal.com]

Oh no, that wouldn't have been very nice for the original author, to remix her story and have characters die. She has Snape mention that Harry and Draco are an item at the end of the story. Also, I thought she (and others!) would prefer sex at the end, not death!

[redshoeson.livejournal.com]

Nicely done! It's refreshing to read a fic with such a unique perspective. Draco's voice is so spot on throughout, and I love that we know what Harry is saying without actually knowing. Just lovely. :D

[schemingreader.livejournal.com]

I am so pleased that you liked this, and especially that you thought I got Draco's voice right.

[magnetic-pole.livejournal.com]

Aha! That's fabulous--a new POV, an emphasis on new canon, a change of tone. I like what you've done with the original, staying true to basic events while saying something different. Well done! Maggie

[schemingreader.livejournal.com]

Thank you! I'm glad you liked it. There was a lot of new canon to deal with, including the photos of Dan Radcliffe in Equus. Heh.

[melusinahp.livejournal.com]

My favourite line: "Of course I was trying to use the Cruciatus on you, Potter. I've always wanted to see you writhe." Hee.

It's lovely to read Harry/Draco written by someone who doesn't usually write the pairing because you bring a really fresh voice to it. I loved the way you wrote Draco, I could see him and his expressions through the whole thing. Mmmm, he was very yummy.

And I love how it was a story within a story - so clever. This was very run and I liked it a lot. :D

[schemingreader.livejournal.com]

So glad you liked it! I know you are a big H/D person, so it means something that you found it enjoyable.

[twistedm.livejournal.com]

omg, i loved this story.

You aren't the only gay wizard with a thing for platinum pubic hair.

yep. loved it.

(I know. I'm amazing at it. I used to sneak up on people in the Slytherin Common Room and make them jump, thinking Snape had caught them. It's a gift.)

you've got this particular voice for draco absolutely down. and it is a delight.

You've gone all red again--your ears are cute. Don't hit me!

it's convincingly youthful, convincingly snarky, convincingly draco.

I love the way you blush; it's just amazing. Snape had passed out? I could probably do you until you pass out.

such a pleasure to read. thanks for all the work you put into it.

[schemingreader.livejournal.com]

Oh yay! I'm really glad you liked it. I like the snarky!Draco characterizations in other people's stories, but he had to be on Harry's side for me to believe that Harry would be with him.

[carolinelamb.livejournal.com]

nice! is lucius/snape a popular pairing? i don't think i have read too many stories with them.

[schemingreader.livejournal.com]

Oh yes, very popular! I think this is my only story with them, though, and that only because the story I was remixing was Snape/Lucius.

Revelations (Hidden Desires Remix) [Harry Potter; Draco/Harry, Severus/Lucius]

[terrible-tues-3.livejournal.com]

Bonus points for this line:

I had magical videotape of Severus Snape saying that, "I want you, Lucius, sex-u-ally."

Re: Revelations (Hidden Desires Remix) [Harry Potter; Draco/Harry, Severus/Lucius]

[schemingreader.livejournal.com]

Don't you wish you had them too?